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ioduanlogs2018-02-22 12:03 pm
powertotearer) wrote in ioduanlogs2018-02-22 12:03 pm
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Characters: Eiji, OTA
Date: Feb 22 - 24
Location: Around Aifaran and the Dreaming Bridge
Situation: Friendship knots, sensory loss, and talents
Warnings/Rating: None yet
1 - Arts 5
Eiji's spent quite a bit of time learning the different knots from the Tifaut's booths around the city, and he's gotten good enough that a couple of people around have commissioned him to make some--partly because it's more personal than buying them at a stall, and partly because he can't bring himself to charge very much other than what someone wants to donate.
Come to pick one up? Come to help and make some money yourself? Or just want to talk? He's mostly at the beach.
2 - Vision
It happens as he walks back to the Dreaming Bridge--his eyes suddenly turn purple, and as he looks ahead at the city, he can barely make it out. Everything has lost its detail, like he's getting poor TV reception, and the colors he's picking up are distorted.
"Not again," he whispers, stumbling backwards in fear. There's no way he can find his way back on his own.
3 - Talent: Restoration
The moments of vision loss have gone away for now, but nothing's changed about Eiji's sense of taste being gone. Still, he tries to help out in the Dreaming Bridge's kitchen, and even if he can't taste anything that's being made, he can at least sort out the vegetables that are starting to go bad.
He sniffs some kind of milk-like liquid and makes a face.
"Okay, I think that's starting to go."
Except...no, it's not, all of a sudden. He feels some kind of weird sensation, and he thinks he's about to have another bout of sensory loss, but...no. The milk, or whatever it is, suddenly seems to smell right.
He looks over to someone else there.
"Uh, can you smell this for me? I thought it might be going bad, but now I'm not sure."
Date: Feb 22 - 24
Location: Around Aifaran and the Dreaming Bridge
Situation: Friendship knots, sensory loss, and talents
Warnings/Rating: None yet
1 - Arts 5
Eiji's spent quite a bit of time learning the different knots from the Tifaut's booths around the city, and he's gotten good enough that a couple of people around have commissioned him to make some--partly because it's more personal than buying them at a stall, and partly because he can't bring himself to charge very much other than what someone wants to donate.
Come to pick one up? Come to help and make some money yourself? Or just want to talk? He's mostly at the beach.
2 - Vision
It happens as he walks back to the Dreaming Bridge--his eyes suddenly turn purple, and as he looks ahead at the city, he can barely make it out. Everything has lost its detail, like he's getting poor TV reception, and the colors he's picking up are distorted.
"Not again," he whispers, stumbling backwards in fear. There's no way he can find his way back on his own.
3 - Talent: Restoration
The moments of vision loss have gone away for now, but nothing's changed about Eiji's sense of taste being gone. Still, he tries to help out in the Dreaming Bridge's kitchen, and even if he can't taste anything that's being made, he can at least sort out the vegetables that are starting to go bad.
He sniffs some kind of milk-like liquid and makes a face.
"Okay, I think that's starting to go."
Except...no, it's not, all of a sudden. He feels some kind of weird sensation, and he thinks he's about to have another bout of sensory loss, but...no. The milk, or whatever it is, suddenly seems to smell right.
He looks over to someone else there.
"Uh, can you smell this for me? I thought it might be going bad, but now I'm not sure."
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He shrugs. "A little? I can't make out details or color very well, and I don't have much depth perception."
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"Start with wanting your sight back."
...Which may be slightly literal. But sometimes unconventional things do work.
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Which doesn't always make sense to him, but he's been figuring it out as he goes.
"Just this, or just wanting to be with my friends doesn't seem to do it."
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Because that seems like it would be one of those things that are extremely frustrating, especially given how Eiji had panicked, before. Chase has experienced a Complicated Emotion (tm), but only in regards to his purpose and split loyalties. Not having desire was not his problem; in fact, it's not a problem that he's seen, and so he can't quite connect to what Eiji's saying.
"...You have had strong personal desires before?"
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It's just that there's still some part of him that thinks he could live with the consequences, as long as it meant nobody else was hurt. That it's really, really hard to think about his own safety and comfort because other people always come to mind first.
He gets quiet and starts thinking.
"I think so. Well, I'm not sure how personal it was. But it was strong."
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"You cannot force yourself to desire something." Which is as far as he can get to determining why the 'just desire something' method isn't going to work. Roidmudes didn't achieve their Super Evolutions by simply wanting it, after all. And as far as Shinnosuke and the others had told him, Chase had been given human emotions at a cost; being human is simply not possible for him. He'd come to accept it. But he also had not been losing his senses.
"If you could have figured it out by thinking, you would have done so...is that correct?" In other words, Chase...would only barely be helping. Maybe he'd even be actively detrimental by saying things that show how little he understands of the situation. He knows well that words can wound, regardless of intent—and he's known a contradictory person or two.
"Does talking it through...help?"
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It actually makes more sense than anything else Eiji's heard. He's not really wanting anything for himself if he's taking on what everyone else wants for him. That was his problem from the start.
"I...I don't know. I really haven't talked about it all that much."
It had been uncomfortable, telling Hina what he'd been through. Enough that he'd left the room when he realized Date was going to go into it in more detail. But maybe he should have said it in the first place.
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Lies humans say without any malice...things that people cannot verbalize...he knows of these things.
"If it is not something that can be solved so easily...I will not pressure you." Go had always...well, that's a little complicated. But Go had also had problems that couldn't be solved so easily; he hadn't clung to the tablet that had contained Banno for no reason. And the others...all his friends (and even some that weren't)...had not escaped such complicated things, either.
For the moment, the most important thing— "How bad is it? Your sight?"
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He blinks a couple of times, but there's no improvement.
"Fuzzy? Like...I don't know if you've ever watched a TV that's got bad reception? It's like that--I can't make out the details. And the color isn't right."
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He isn't being entirely unaware of how...inadequate that solution sounds as he says it. Lobco...hadn't seemed to need anything more than a hat. But she'd also said she could get re-accustomed to the sun.
"...If it persists...you may have to live with it. Are you prepared for that?"
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The thought that his sensory loss may well be permanent has always been at the back of his mind. But hearing it out loud, he cringes for a moment before nodding slowly.
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It's not a judgement or even just a simple observation—after all, Eiji could've always said 'no,' that he wasn't prepared.
"Are you forcing yourself?"
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"Maybe."
But he's scared. And he's not really sure how he's supposed to tell anyone that.
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"It does not...make it any easier, does it?"
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It hasn't worked at all.
"I don't know how to get rid of these things."
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At the end of the day, he supposes that's all he's getting at. He knows these kinds of issues aren't going to be easy.
"If you require it, I will assist you." That's what buddies do, right? (Other than fight, but never mind that.)
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He's grateful, but he does look a little hesitant--something he explains by adding, "I just hope it doesn't end up with us having to fight to get them out of me."
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Chase doesn't have any real qualms about it. And hell, as a Rider he can drag humans out of Fusion Roidmude; having to retrieve a foreign substance out of Eiji doesn't even register as something insurmountable or even difficult at this point in time.
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"I don't want to end up hurting you, or anyone else either."
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But, if possible, give me a moment to transform. [Of his forms, the Rider form is the best-suited for it, after all.]
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I can't promise much, but I can try.
i messed up and changed the format oops ;;
...But they should probably hope it doesn't come to that.
"Is having to fight a real possibility?"
np!
"I don't know. I've got better control over myself than when I first got the Medals, but I don't know how far that'll extend."
The Greeed are so driven by their unsatisfiable desire that it's hard for Eiji to believe that they could even maintain a normal personality. But his Medals were the opposite--the complete lack of a desire. Since he already didn't have one, what would it mean for him? What could he do?
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Especially since Eiji is dealing with so much other things already. Plus, both Drive's Dead Heat form and Heart's Dead Zone state became uncontrollable after a certain point—and in Heart's case, Chase had had to do something. It's good to know that it's something he might need to prepare for in advance.
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"Thanks."